Caught in the Softness (In response to dying star by Ashnikko)

I need somethin’ warm, the sun between my bones,

Where whispers cradle me like gentle stones.

You were the tide, pulling me from despair,
A soft promise in the weight of the air.
You were a current, a song in my veins,
While I drifted in shadows, lost in the chains.

You held me like the dawn, unafraid to bloom,
Every heartbeat echoing, chasing the gloom.
I watched you thrash, a fish caught in dreams,
Your eyes like a storm, unraveling seams.
So I gave you my breath, my love like a flame,
In the mud we sank, but I’ll never feel shame.

I asked for the stars, you painted the night,
With down feathers scattered, you turned wrongs to right.
Your laughter was lightning, igniting the skies,
Together we swam, where the wild water lies.
In your embrace, I found solace anew,
With every soft fall, it was always just you.

So let the weeds grow, let the roots intertwine,
For I’m no longer lost, your heart is divine.
Through crooked trajectories, we’ll dance in the fray,
The ground reaching out, guiding our way.
I’m tired of the dirt, but in your love’s glow,
I’ve found my forever, where soft shadows grow.

Emergence

In the shadows, I once lay bound,

A captive of whispers, a prisoner of sound.
But now I rise, a phoenix in flight,
With embers of courage igniting the night.

The tendrils of fear once curled at my feet,
But I stand unyielding, defiant, complete.
With each breath I take, the darkness recedes,
My heart blooms with power, from soil of my needs.

The echoes of nightmares, once haunting my dreams,
Now shatter like glass in the face of my screams.
I gather the fragments, I stitch them with grace,
Each piece tells a story of strength in this space.

The moonlight, a lantern, now guides my way,
Illuminating paths where shadows once played.
I weave through the darkness, no longer a prey,
The night bows before me, my will holds sway.

For I am the tempest, the storm uncontained,
A warrior of light, from the ashes reclaimed.
With branches now trembling, the dark bends and breaks,
For in my own heart, the true magic awakes.

So let them come creeping, let them come near,
With courage as armor, I’ll hold them in fear.
I am the sun rising, the dawn breaking free,
A child turned to warrior, unchained and with glee.

I am so FUCKING HAPPY!

 I am so happy I cant feel my tears,

I am so happy I forgot all my fears,

I am so happy I barley bleed,

I am so happy you can't see me.

I am watching myself slip through my fingers

she was here and now shes gone

I guess she'll never be mine

and in the meantime she's robbing me blind

too many contenders to have a prayer

and their mouth agape as they stare

I am so happy I never complain

I am so happy everything isn't lame

I am so happy I cut a smile into me

So you can see me grin from cheek to cheek

I am so fucking happy I may never stop laughing

I am so fucking happy 

Cant you tell?

By the way I smile you'd never believe we are in hell.